I’m about to break down && add him on Facebook just so I can talk to him.Either that,or get a hold of his brother - the person he’s staying with.
I need someone to either convince me in or out of it.This “tossing up the idea back && forth in my head” is KILLING me!
&& now,you’re all that I think about.I’m even thinking about the possibilities that we could have if we tried again…
I HATE that you are my 1st love.No matter what you’ve done to me,no matter how much you’ve hurt me,no matter how many times you abandoned me,no matter what you’ve done…I will always love you…&& I hate myself for that.
Seeing you for the 1st time in almost exactly a year,it’s just really done something to me.
I just either want you to completely disappear from my life,&& me never have to see you or interact with you again…or us be together for the rest of our lives - working past all of our problems,&& living a happy life together.One of the 2 need to happen,bc I don’t think I could handle the near heart attack I got yesterday when you came up to my car window,expecting me to talk to you…I just can’t handle seeing you ever again without us being together.
I love these kids as if they were my own…
Their mom lost her life January 12th, 2012, && I’ve basically kinda stepped in ever since.I used to be just the “aunt” that hung around the house…But,now,I AM the Aunt (To Kyler) && Sister (to Destiny) that would do just about anything for them,just bc I love them so damn much!
When she passed away,they had nowhere to permanently live,so they had to Missouri.These pictures are from the short visit I had with them yesterday.They’re in town for a few weeks,so I’m going to try to get as much time with them as possible before they leave again.
These kids mean the world to me.
(I just hope I don’t cry every time I see them like I did last night - God,I miss their mom SO much!)
In a self-hate kinda mood right now.
Everything has really kicked in.All the racing thoughts have finally caught up to me.I need to NOT be at home,away from everyone I love right now.As much as I need this break from SCHOOL…I’m not sure how much I’m gonna be able to handle this break from the people I love.
I completely destroyed all my ties at home the summer before I started college bc I wanted a new,fresh start.Which,I succeeded in.&& I’m perfectly okay with that.Also,last year,I was pretty much an introvert.So,the fact that I didn’t make many real friends my 1st year.But,this year,I’ve made such STRONG,close relationships with many amazing people.&&…now,I need them more than ever!!! =/
Night really turned around!
I have some pretty great people in my life! =D
…I’ve been making a lot of bad choices here of late… =/
Wonderful way to start off my summer break.
Got to see a lot of people I haven’t seen in a LONG time!Spent some great times with them.Went out to dinner with my family.&&,the best part about it?My Bestie has been with me the whole time!She even helped me move out.I love her so much.&& I’m happy that we’ve been able to spend so much quality time with each other before we aren’t able to see each other for awhile.
The only thing that could make this weekend better?If I was able to talk to her. =D
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The sun goes down,the stars come out,
&& all that counts,is here && now.
My universe,will never be the same.
I’m glad you came!
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